wow its been a while, and a lots happened.

 umm i went to california with kelly for a week. we went to disneyland, seaworld, and the san diego zoo. it was really REALLY fun. but in the middle i call my dad and my great grandpa is sick, and not gunna make it for much longer. so that ruined my night. and i just sort of attacked myself mentally since then. just cuz i feel bad being happy. like i dont understand. i really got to know someone very very well this week, and like i just totally feel their pain. i mean i feel like so much different now, that like i know about them, like i feel sad, for them. i dont know its weird. maybe its just a feeling. nothing more. whatever. sara jamie chad andy chris and i went and saw wedding crashers last night. really funny. i had a good time there, but a bad night after. i just feel like i want to curl up in a blanket and read a sad book, and just be. ahh whatever im crazy lol

_ALEX